finally writing about march

i know its the middle of April but i finally get a chance to write about another one of my favorite months. Why? do u ask well let me tell you...its leilani's birthday month! she turned 3 on march 11th my baby girl is getting so so big.

my favorite picture of her cause she was already smiling.

getting her weight...thats right 9lbs 4oz my big girl! 

she had daddys cheeks from the start.

look at all that hair!

 

Leilani Ayanna Ruiz....yes i was very tired and sleepy....

well for her 3rd birthday we took the girls to disneyland for the day...

then on Sunday March 11th we had a birthday party at our place with family and friends

thank u laura for the birthday cake it was so good!

lani with one of her many gifts 

she loves cars! just like daddy

makaylah having fun

time to blow the candles..

lani had so much fun....thank you to everyone that was able to come out we hope u guys had fun too. Another great month!

feb. the month of love..

February has been a pretty good month to us. we found out makaylah doesn't need any eye surgery anytime soon. So i was very excited about that! like i was saying February was a month full of love..

When my girls get along its a wonderful thing to see...

my mom also came over to spend sometime with us instead of being at work..we were all so very happy.

Leilani is very close to my mom its so cute. she talks to her on the phone even if my mom cant understand what she is saying they can spend hours on the phone.

Makaylahs school had a friendship party and i got a chance to make little goody bags for all 40 kids. everyone ended up loving the bags even Makaylah's teachers sent me a note telling me thank you for everything.

February was a great month for us and hopefully it was for you!

December memories....

we had so many great memories in December. This was the first time we as a family put up Christmas lights outside our home and the girls loved it! lani kept saying.."mom mom look it look it woooow!" and makaylah kept saying..."WOW!" they were so happy to see all the light and the reindeer in our front yard. They were also very happy and excited that they got to see their uncle Alex and his family. My brother got them a baby doll for makaylah and an hot wheels track for leilani for Christmas.

  My girls are getting so big! leilani is 2 going on 30 :) she thinks she can do everything by herself miss independent started to use the potty finally! she is not scared anymore but i have to keep reminding her if not she will go in her pull ups. 
Makaylah is 4 now and is out growing her leg braces.  Her physical therapist wants her to wear them on and off so maybe soon she will no longer need them. i'm happy about that but i notice she is very clumsy when she doesn't have them on. SO hopefully in time she will get better at not falling down.

On Christmas eve we took the girls to toys R Us to see if anything caught there eyes so we can get it for them for Christmas and when we were all done lani wanted to go for a ride with tigger but after it started moving she got scared and wanted daddy to hold her hand. i love that picture of them because they have the same look! 
hope everyone had a great holiday season because i know i did. 

Happy New Years! lani almost made it till midnight but she ended up falling asleep and makaylah went to bed at the time she always does by 7:30pm. we had our own little party at home. I hope this year is better for my family. yay for 2012!

What a day...

Today was one of those very hard days. Makaylah woke up in a very bad mood and i still had to get her ready for school.  So I'm trying to undress her from her PJ's but she did not want me to touch her. she kept pushing me away, pulling my hair and was getting so frustrated with everything. i hate it when i cant figure out what she wants all she does is yell, scream and cry whenever she gets frustrated i wish she would talk to me or for me to just understand what she is trying to tell me.
This doesn't happen often but when it does its so hard to keep it together. It hurts so much to see her crying and seeing her pull her hair or see her bite herself And not being able to stop it is the worst feeling in the world.  So i just try and give her all her favorite things to get her mind off of what she is doing...Her blanket, cup of milk, or her stuff monkey. Sometimes all those things don't work and when that happens i pick her up and take her outside for her to get fresh air and that almost stops it every time.
but, like i was saying this morning i tried giving her all those things but still nothing she kept pulling my hair and crying at the top of her lungs so i just rode through it got her dress got her leg braces on and put her in her wheel chair and took her outside. the bus was already waiting for us outside and as soon as she saw the bus and the driver ( she loves the driver) she stopped crying. she got on the bus and didn't even want to wave bye to me because she started to cry again. i told her shes OK everything will be OK that i love her and i will see her when she gets home. i went back inside and that's when i broke down.
i shouldn't let it get to me or complain about it because i know things could be alot worst but the thing that gets me so upset is just seeing her get so frustrated and seeing her do all those things to herself. Not being able to just hold her and comfort her because she doesn't really like to be touched. Put it this way the only time she will let us really hold her or just hold her hand is when she is sick. other then that its a side ways hug and u have to hug her she doesn't put her arms around you.
One big memory i have is when makaylah ended up at the hospital for the first time when she had her very first seizure, she was laying on that bed and i had my hand on the bed and she reached for my hand and started to hold it. i was so happy and so sad at the same time. thinking about it makes me cry....
It was finally time for monkey to get home from school.When the bus pulled up to the house i was right there waiting for her and as soon as she saw me she had the biggest smile on her face. that smile always makes me forget about all the bad things that happen in the day. No matter how hard things get i keep telling myself it can be worst, their is alot worst things happening in the world that i shouldn't let this get to me..... I love you makaylah...
hope everyone had a great day if not their is always tomorrow. :)

time flew by part 2.....

When makaylah was a baby it was really easy to take her out. this picture was her first trip to the beach. As you can see, she was sleeping. This is how she spent almost the whole time we were there.
Now its alot harder to take both the girls out. when makaylah gets upset she just yells very load or doesn't want to walk anymore so she throws herself on the floor. even when she is in her wheel chair she tries so hard to get out of it even if she is strapped in it. she starts to pull her hair or tries to get a hold of anything and drop it on the floor. That's her sign whenever she wants to get down from where ever she is.

Lani at 9months when she started to crawl for the first time. she loved it so much and everywhere we would go that all she wanted to do. i didn't like it cause of all the dirty things on the floor but i always made sure to carry antibacterial wipes those were our best friend!
now she still doesn't want to sit still always wants to touch everything and if she see someone trying to say hello to her she hides with her dad or hides in my arms. sometimes when she doesn't get scared she just goes up to someone and just hugs them like she knows them its so funny but i don't really like it. I know its just a stage and she will grow out of it but those wipes or still our best friend! 

Around this time Leilani age 7-8months makaylah 1 1/2-2yrs people would always ask me if they were twins. I couldn't see where they would get that but since makaylah was not walking yet and i had to carry her everywhere then i can see it. Makaylah was way over her weight for her age group but she wasn't very active. not really crawling or walking just turning her body around. Doctors always were giving me a hard time that i had to cut back with the amount i would feed her. Instead i just worked twice as hard to get her to crawl. She finally did. She still loves to crawl every where we go. Makaylah always trying to touch her sisters hair. thank you guys for your time, hope u guys have a great night.

time just flew by....

Its been a while since i have gone on here so since its the end of the year lets go back in time. Plus i got my main computer up and running so i can show u guys some old pictures of the girls. Its very hard to believe how much my girls have grown these past couple of years.
I remember the day Makaylah met leilani for the first time. Makaylah was out in the desert with my mom so Jon and i drove out there. I was going to stay for a while so i could get some help with the girls plus my mom wanted to spend as much time with all her girls.

Makaylah was so excited to met leilani! that smile said it all. i was so worried that makaylah was going to freak out or try to do something to her but she was pretty good. the only time she would really freak out was when leilani would start to cry. makaylah had no clue what that was, so she would start to cry. i always had a hard time trying to calm one girl while the other would start to cry so i had to calm the other. thank goodness my mom was there to help or when Jon came over to visit he would help me out so much too.

Our first Easter was pretty good but this was one of the days makaylah did not like the fact that leilani was crying. makaylah kept getting frustrating with her so she kept trying to hit her to stop but just kept making it worst.
When Leilani was not crying just being nice and calm that was when i would see the sweet side of Makaylah.

Going to call it a night for today but their are still some more days left in December and a lot of old pictures i can post so i hope u stay tuned :)

great start for November...

November is one of the best month of the year. Makaylah birthday and Jon's birthday is in this month. She was born November 4th 2007 at 5:48pm she weighed 7lbs 2oz. and was 19 1/2 inch. long.

she was such a great baby never really cried and was always happy. i cant believe how fast time has just flown by like nothing. i now have a 4 year old little girl. she is such a happy little kid almost always has a smile on her face.

she had school that day and i ended up buying some juice and cupcake for her and her class. they ended up having a little party at school for her.

Grandpa and grandma came over to give makaylah her gift and she loved it. both of the girls loves looking at the fish lava lamp.

she has been through so much in her life and she is growing up so fast. she learns so many new things every single day and i love watching her trying to figure out things on her own. she has improved in so many things, walking talking and just trying to communicate with me. your one of the best things in my life! i love you makaylah.
On Friday we took a drive to my old home town of palm springs, to go watch the veterans parade. Palm springs is still so beautiful out there i miss it so much. i didn't get to see any of my friends but hopefully i go back again to visit perfect time to go visit palm springs! like always Makaylah was in a very good mood but Lani didn't want to leave lol.

I hope the rest of November is as good as the beginning.